What kind of artist do I want to be? I spend a lot of time wondering that. Am I ever going to be as good as the next guy? I probably won’t but the fact of the matter is I don’t care. Maybe I am just fooling myself but I really don’t think I am. With every word I write; with every film I make; with every time I try to express myself, in any form, I do it for myself. Don’t get me wrong it is a filmmakers dream to be able to touch as many people as possible with their films but first and foremost for me it’s not about that. It is a way for me to communicate. It is a means to an end.
Making films gives me a voice and lets me show you a little part of me that you wouldn’t normally get to see. Whether you like it or not you get to see inside my soul. I have been thinking about this a lot lately and I have come to the conclusion that no matter how many times a person bares their soul it never gets any easier or more personal than that. I have been blessed in my life and I know that. I grew up in a home where I was supported and loved. I have an amazing supporting cast in my life and I wouldn’t be anywhere if it weren’t for them and because of them, I get to do what I have always dreamed of since I was a kid. Plus I get to work with some really amazing people.
I mean how many people do you know get to say that they got to direct Patrick Starfish or Sundown from Top Gun or got to learn screenwriting from two really amazing teachers: an academy award nominee for Mr. Holland’s opus and the other an amazing television writer? How many people get to say that they worked and learned from one of their all time favorite cult directors when they were growing up? I am going to go out on a limb and say not that many. The list goes on and on. I am grateful for every single moment that I get to do what I love. I will continue to do so as long as I am alive and kicking. I will never stop trying to express myself. It might not always be good but at least I am out there for the whole world to see. Okay I changed my mind I do care what everybody thinks. But it is my soul and my heart that is on display not yours. So if you are going to try and backdoor me at least use a little lubrication.
So until next time kiddies I will leave you with the immortal words of Ed Wood “Really? Worst film you ever saw. Well, my next one will be better. Hello. Hello.”
Love the every grateful and trying to be more humble
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